Like Air

Like Air
I lost something.
A very important part of me.
The worst part is that I probably never had it.
She came into my life a cool breeze.
Everyone knows that you can't catch air.
But I'm a fool and yes I tried.
And just when I thought I had her,
she slipped right through my fingers.
Like Air.
If I close my eyes,
I can still feel her arms around me.
Grabbing her hand and pointing at Orion.
Feel her breath on my neck,
her body calming my cold shivers.
I replay that moment every time I blink.
I heard her tell me to open my heart.
I felt him open her.
And for the first time in a long time,
I felt safe.
Every fear that I had .
Every insecurity vanished when she told me that he loved me.
So soft.
So low.
So gentle.
So real.
The moment magnified,
I could hear the fish swim in the river below.
I could see the fragment of glass on the moon and everything went silent.
So quiet that you could hear my breathless response.
I wanted to cry.
I wanted to reach up and slap God high five.
But then like air- it disappeared.
His breathing got heavy.
I saw flickers in his eyes and
within a couple of seconds my world came crashing down.
His confessions cut me like shrapnel.
And even though his thoughts hadn't become actions,
I couldn't help but feel like I had lost him.
It hurt so bad. So bad.
He turned the tables on me with her sexy swiftness.
Made me feel as though I had committed the ultimate crime.
And what did I do? I let him.
She made my eyes melt.
Made my ears bleed.
Made my heart ache.
And just like a cool sudden breeze- she was gone.
She removed a pebble from my foundation and
collapsed the greatest pyramid in Egypt.
And after the dust cleared,
and the air had returned to it's resting stage.
I was left in ruins.

Like air-
I was gone.